...just my two cents...

"tick...tock...tick...tock..."


11:45 PM

She has been twisting and turning on her bed for more than an hour, trying to get some sleep. "Come on! You have to sleep, you still have work tomorrow!", she whispers to herself. She tried to do the old tricks... count sheeps, read a book, listen on her radio, but none seemed to work. She closed her eyes.

She gazed at the clock for the nth time... it's 12:15 in the morning already. Her thoughts still wandering... She had a long day, went home drunk, but still unable to find peace in her own bedroom.

She turned on her iPod and pressed play.

"..so good... when it's good i wanna spend my whole life loving you..."

"Great! Just what I need..." she mumbles. She ran out of things to do... to keep her mind preoccupied. She started asking questions to herself. Questions she herself couldnt seem to answer.

"Does he love me?", yes he does, she responded.
"Will he stay?", a big chance that he would, she answered.
"But why are we like this?", and she couldnt seem to reason out anymore...

She's very easy to fall in love with, and the qualities that she has makes her very hard to forget. She never had to exert any effort with a guy... And once the spark dies down, she's the one who call the shots. She was their 'heartbreaker'.

She never cried over a guy who isnt her boyfriend. She never sacrificed... She was the dominant one... she was in control... until now...

She is officially in love.. with her best friend... She learned to love him for everything that he is...

"He's not your type! Not even close to one..."

..and she loves him for everything he's not...

See, it isnt complicated at all... They're both single. They spend most of their time together doing stuff they both love to do. They're both adventuresome by nature... They both know how to have fun... They both know they're special to each other... They fight, they make up... they compromise... they are buddies... they are partners in crime...

...but they are not a couple...

...and she doesnt get it herself...


Once again, their friends' constant nagging about them becoming an official couple started to ring like a bell. She cannot blame them, after all, they do act like a couple...

*sigh*

"God, why does it have to be this way? I asked for numbers of signs... none of them seem to give a positive feedback... I dont know if that's a 'no' or I have been asking the wrong questions... please..."

She diverted her attention to her iPod...

"i'd just walk out that door... i couldn't take it anymore... i wouldnt put up with what you put me through... if i didnt love you..."

...and then she closed her eyes.