clowns

i love making other people smile...

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what do clowns, comedians, and mimes all have in common?

they have the hardest job in the world... they make the world a happier place, by sometimes setting their own bliss aside... they need to keep that exhilaration no matter how melancholic they may be...

and some people are like that... they put up that cheerful aura that says "i am having the greatest day of my life" and nobody notices the sadness they are feeling that often lead to their own demise. they are those pretentious individuals who dont want to become a burden to their already problematic surrounding and hoping that they could help, by just putting a happy face...

these personalities are often seen as fairy god mothers who can wave their wands and everything will magically be okay, or tink who sprays some pixie dust and lets you fly to Neverland... and since they never seem to run out of energy, they are often taken for granted... their needs are often overlooked or appear unimportant to others... thus, the pretentious characters become lonelier, burrowed deeper in grief and desolation... and put on some thicker make-up where they find solace, even if it is just transitory...

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...but sometimes it gets too tiring
that i just find myself looking for someone....
...who could make me smile too...

hottttt weekend

it's been extremely hot these days... i got tan lines without even exerting an effort going to the beach... my rash has found new places to grow their colonies at... hassle... i love this kind of weather if im out of town... either exploring new places or burrow myself under the depth of the ocean... but budget and time wont allow me to do so as of the moment...

boy, is Frosty so glad he doesnt live here?

and im back :)

yay im back!

there's so many things to talk about on this hot Sunday afternoon... and it leaves me speechless as i go through my scattered thoughts...

*tapping fingers*

my last entry was sooo gloomy, miserable, sad, and all those depressing synonyms that you could think of. it's a new year... a new life... a new in almost everything.

anyway... the person that i was talking about my last article... we're on our 8th month already ;) 'nuff said :D

i was loaned to another project and was sent "onshore" in Makati when our stint in the beloved "project-ship" has been placed on hold (and nobody can really tell for how long). i developed a love-hate relationship for that commitment... love, because i gained a few people to add in my own quirky circle of trust (hi friend! *sabunot*)... hate, because no matter how much pride a company takes on it people, there are just some people that keeps on barking but isnt really willing to bite... but anywho... this isnt about those people, so let's move on...

after my stint to that "onshore" assignment was over, i was called in for another project... and it would be for a permanent basis...

and now, this is where i am (hmm.. that doesnt seem too much to talk about now that i did :P), 5 months on the run and still counting... to be very very honest... i dont like what im doing... it's not really something that i am very very interested in... but in one of the meetings that i attended in this project, one of the executives said something that knocked me back to my senses... i dont remember everything verbatim but here's the gist:

in all the years that i will spend in a company, not everything that i will be asked to do is something that i would like to devote my time on... it may be crappy, lowly, not-worth-your-precious-time kind of work, but it could be something you needed to learn (in whatever means necessary)...

...and yes, after that speech, i started to like my job a few inch higher than the usual. :)

okay, so i have less weekends to enjoy by myself, with my family or with my loved one... i have weeks where i come to work 10 - 12 days straight without any day-offs.... yes my life suck a bit this time... but i know there are things i will learn from this experience, one way or another... so yes, i started to appreciate (i dont love it... but i apprise it...)... id like to think that something good will come out of this experience (rather than rant and whine about it).

anyway... it's the 2nd month of summer already... but i havent gone to a single summer-friendly place yet... pathetic i know... it takes a lot of courage to keep me here at the moment... but im looking forward to a better vacation soon :)

ciao for now :P